your disaster.

i know i shouldn't be dreaming or thinking of things that can never happen but i was just dreaming. i really want to be able to one day call you mine. i dream about you all night, i think about you all day, it feels so different when your near. it feels so distant when you dont care. i know it may seem as if i have been thru this phase with plenty of other girls. a few cliched words. it's really different, this time it's really different. i think about when we are in sec4 how life's gonna be, how stressful everything's gonna be you have your O's i have my N's. i know that we can never be together but i keep dreaming about you being mine. impossible is what they say i've gotten hints that we can never be together but i still think about you being mine and all it sucks to have so much to say to you, but i just cant say cos it's just not right; there's so much i want to tell you, so much i wanted to share. things i want to do with you, things that we can share. it seems so wrong but it seems so right. i want so much from someone i only know that much about but i swear this feelings i have for her are real. i sumpah are real. it isn't true love but it's great love and i cant seem to get over you. as in why cant i not like you. you are almost perfect, you're pretty you've got a nice body you are so intelligent and you are musically inclined. and to want you is so overboard. it's like one of the 7 dwarves trying to be a top male model. i feel like some fucked up abysmal wanna be trying to have Naima Mora. wait, that's out of point. maybe let me just summarize this.

i've been thinking bout you 24/7
and how you always made me cry.
i know for sure that you cant be mine.
but i just want you to know that to me you are perfect all the time.
and if one day i could call you mine,
you'd be my angel sent from up above.
and with that i promise you,
i'm not lying when i said i loved you
you are my angel
and girl i swear, it's just that simple.

but then again, you'd never be mine.
so i'll just sit my corner
and flick some old dimes
i'm just one fucked up bummer,
dreaming of you.